hi everyone. apologies for not continuing on with the
  serial essay and finishing it as planned. i tried to re-
  gain lost momentum with the ideas, yet this is also of
  a never-ending exploration and this pause is rather
  arbitrary in its location and duration. the ideas could
  and can start/stop anyway, and go in any direction.

  while i wrote that i would continue with the description
  of relations of e-poles in terms of a panoptic analysis,
  and also, clarify how 'art' could be evaluated in these
  dynamics as a fundamental basis for shared knowing,
  it is instead better for me to let this remain in silence,
  because that would do the ideas more justice than not
  giving a best effort to communicate/share them clearly.
  it just is not within my heart to do anymore. it is emptied
  of the need to say anything more about these issues.

  that is to say, to write in a one-way monologue about
  such phenomena. at some moment it is realized that it
  can no longer be sustained and it collapses in on itself.
  there is no more energy to push the weight of it forward.
  and instead, it is an issue of being buried inside of this
  condition. if not driven into a type of unconsciousness.

  so, what this note is attempting to convey is that some-
  day these ideas can be continued, in another format and
  with another approach that involves more than myself. it
  is also prerequisite that more institutional support would
  be necessary, including the need to speak and debate
  and share conversations about these ideas and events.
  because there is and always has been recognized a lot
  more going on than just what is being said, or 'saying'.
  and all of this richness is lost to the banality of limits.

  having written for what seems to be over 2 years on the
  list, in terms of this ~Human Techné and the Cybernetic
  Estate serial essay, it is to leave off at the end of what i
  consider to be a fundamental or foundational structure
  from which to move from 'being' into 'doing', such as it
  could be related to art and other (quasi) first practices.
  this gets/goes into many areas, including the ideas of
  the electromagnetic assemblage exhibits, conferences,
  collaborations, networking, and so on. and yet there is
  a gap, and written words moving one-way are not able
  to get there alone. in a sense, the dream is stranded.

  and this is okay. it becomes necessary to rest, and to
  take account of the situation. and for me this is also a
  chance to not work so constantly and to my demise on
  ideas which function against sustainability, because it
  'costs' quite tremendously on a personal level to work
  on such a pursuit. the reward is encounters with truth
  that do not correspond with survival, nor with money.
  and that is the safety latch or mechanism which also
  keeps things in check. at a certain point it must stop.

  and thus, it is important and necessary to recognize
  when that time/place/space arrives when this is the
  best policy, to preserve the initiative and effort at a
  later time, when it can be restarted anew, and with a
  better more improved and collaborative approach. in
  this way, it is with great hope and trust that it is easy
  to let go of the need to continue, and to try to regain
  lost balance in the larger situation or condition, so as
  to be able to continue in a more effective way, myself.

  so, while in the future a position as a teacher or visiting
  speaker or whatnot would begin to enable these ideas
  to be further developed, where a livelihood could then
  be sustained within the society, until then, gears have
  to shift to deal with the ruins of this pursuit. the broken
  equipment, the cost of devoting everything to the ideas
  and not able to keep up with inflationary existence, and
  also of the profound isolation and social alienation that
  makes moving through the day its own type of struggle.

  luckily, i finally found a place to fit in, however oddly. it
  is in starting to do bicycle repairs and working with my
  hands in a tangible way that is grounded in the present,
  and in relation to one of my closest mental attachments,
  which is riding my bicycle. my goal is to set up shop in
  my apartment and do small repairs for barter or whatnot
  while also working to learn more about repairing bicycles,
  and potentially doing conceptual work on bicycle RD&D
  which is in the formative stages now. and to do this i need
  to shut down the existing project, to finalize and end it, in
  this stage of its development, until it springs open again.

  so, if anyone is in Minneapolis on the list and has a bike
  and needs repairs, consider e-mailing me if you want. it
  has been a wonderful experience to work with bicycles,
  and it is my plan for staying above the rising waters, etc.
  i've been able to invest in many of the fundamental bike
  tools though still have a ways to go, and am working on
  a stand, though in about 2 months i should be ready to
  try my hand at this. and potentially work on a new type
  of bicycle in the process. if the latter were to happen, i
  would send a short url to the list of any new website, etc.

  in any case, bicycle repair is a great vocation and i figure
  if i move anyway it is something i could do to sustain my
  life and also to have a structured way to relate to others,
  because one of the most major difficulties for me is the
  asperger's dynamics, and this helps bridge that chasm
  between worlds. at least it has worked in ways that i've
  never been able to imagine possible, any longer, and it
  has brought me back into the tangible material realm of
  stuff, and as ideas and people relate in this condition, to
  then require grounding. and thus, this bike repair is the
  most tangible work i've ever done, in practical terms of
  the existing society, and also the best job i've ever had.
  it is a true joy. just as writing this essay over two years
  has been. and now that dynamic need is located in the
  local realm and likely will emerge back online, in time,
  in terms of information and ideas which relate directly
  to the other types of examples given here previously,
  about how supermarkets and other 'types' could be
  considered and improved upon ecologically, and so
  on. and so too, bicycles as an artifact in this larger
  societal infrastructure. so, whatever results, i will let
  the list know when there is something to show for it.

  in any case, either way, please be in contact for any
  future plans as they may start working their way into
  the present day. whether bicycles or electromagnetism.
  the list will stay functional, though the continuation of
  essays will likely cease to continue. if only due to
  exhaustion and a need for sustained reflection. it is
  hoped that this situational limbo can be accepted for
  now, a wintering of the list, so to say, so that whatever
  will continue to extend or replace it can start to begin...

  thanks everyone for considering the ideas in whatever
  ways. the silence has been a challenge yet also it has
  been an opportunity for largely shameless monologue in
  a naive 'common sense' reasoning of electromagnetism
  and culture. it is much appreciated what the list has given,
  in terms of an audience for the ideas. and i tried to give
  my best as part of the exchange. and now, when i cannot
  muster up my best, any longer, it is time to retire for awhile.
  and go to where the fire is, and keep it alive and tend to it.
  which is to say, the imagination, and the drive to continue
  with the ideas, in various ways that truth can be mediated
  by a person and between people, and i hope to return here
  again, after learning more and doing more, so as to be able
  to give more and get more out of the potential for exchange.
  which is an attempt to say, to try to actualize these ideas in
  the 'real' world, whatever that is or may be. i do not know.
  yet i intend to find out, one way or another. and it is my
  hope that it is the best way possible. to follow that path.

  so, i hope to meet friends old and new, once again, and
  send this is a type of letter from afar, as if having gone on
  an extended vacation for awhile. if only to regain my self.
  and balance, so as to be able to maintain equilibrium in a
  vast scenario of differences, yet on the same side of truth.
  in any case, thanks for the great fun. see you again. brian

                                        {the end}